Losing it

I am not being me.

I am keeping everything inside.

Remember the time i used to loved you?

I still do but you make it difficult for me.

All this lying and accusation.

I'm innocent.

It's over now i guess

I try so hard to forget about you

but your images just keeps haunting me

over & over again.

Everything that my eyes fall upon,

reminds me of you.

We did everything basically.

I just wanted to be loved.

Nothing more.

I don't need gifts nor surprises

i just need/needed you.

I swallowed every little/big things

you said to me.

I know that it's gonna pay-off.

Well, it did pay off but i was different.

My thinking started going haywire.

I couldn't think about anything anymore

i couldn't fight for innocence anymore

that is why i surrendered to every little thing.

You may think i am an asshole

You may think that i am stupid

You may think that i am a Son of a B****

but i know deep down in me that

i am not and that i always love you.

Seeing you doing all those stuffs and going

to all those places made me more worried.

Maybe i am not use to it because we

were so close to each other.

We share thoughts with each other.

We cried with each other.

We gave hugs to each other.

I know you're moving on with someone better

than me. Truth is, i don't wanna see you move on.

I want you here.

Right by my side.

We're not done catching stones yet.

I am done with my past life.

I'm new and i am not gonna repeat

the same mistake.

I'm losing it.

I love you. W