I am not being me.
I am keeping everything inside.
Remember the time i used to loved you?
I still do but you make it difficult for me.
All this lying and accusation.
I'm innocent.
It's over now i guess
I try so hard to forget about you
but your images just keeps haunting me
over & over again.
Everything that my eyes fall upon,
reminds me of you.
We did everything basically.
I just wanted to be loved.
Nothing more.
I don't need gifts nor surprises
i just need/needed you.
I swallowed every little/big things
you said to me.
I know that it's gonna pay-off.
Well, it did pay off but i was different.
My thinking started going haywire.
I couldn't think about anything anymore
i couldn't fight for innocence anymore
that is why i surrendered to every little thing.
You may think i am an asshole
You may think that i am stupid
You may think that i am a Son of a B****
but i know deep down in me that
i am not and that i always love you.
Seeing you doing all those stuffs and going
to all those places made me more worried.
Maybe i am not use to it because we
were so close to each other.
We share thoughts with each other.
We cried with each other.
We gave hugs to each other.
I know you're moving on with someone better
than me. Truth is, i don't wanna see you move on.
I want you here.
Right by my side.
We're not done catching stones yet.
I am done with my past life.
I'm new and i am not gonna repeat
the same mistake.
I'm losing it.
I love you. W